yesterday, suddenly, my eyes were finally opened and i could see myself for what i was. for what i am!! i am gargantum! my body has fallen to pieces and expanded, grown sidewides! i feel repulsive! how am i supposed to "flaunt my thighs" in two months when i look like this?
so. i exercised yesterday, and now my muscles are moaning and groaning! a good thing tho. and a new diet! no white carbs, no sugar, barely any dairy!
i don't know. i just want to cry and throw up everytime i look in the mirror.