i'm such a trembling, shaking bag of nerves! my first exam is tomorrow (Cromwell) and i feel nauseous at the thought of having to pick up a pen and writing about the Hail Commission, dissolution of the Rump (snigger) and many other things! the most awful aspect of these exams is not only not knowing what questions will i encounter, but the sheer magntiude and scope that we must pound into our heads (and then immediantly discard in favour of another subject)! i shall be up all night twisting my fingers into knots and my face into gruesome grimaces.

ive found a little salvation in the comforting realms of beauty blogs! unlike fashion blogs, which i love to peruse but cannot quite "get" half the time, the beauty blog speak my language entirely. i've always known i have the capacity to get addicted to makeup (even moreso than now) and consquently, ive just decided to embrace it warmly with open arms. ive conjured up a makeup wishlist, which is impossibly long and i have yet to find a peachy pink blusher that isnt Super Orgasm. i have pacified myself with the promise that once my exams are over, i will go on a massive beauty shopping splurge and buy whatever i want, even if it cleans out my bank account (insert BIRTHDAY ££££ here...two weeks!!).
currently, i am longing for;

- Dior Forever Extreme Wear Foundation
- YSL Gloss Pur in Pure Coral (no.3) or Pure Raspberry (no.4)
- Maybelline Sun Glow Bronzing Drops
- 17 Shimmer/bronze Pearls
- GOSH Blusher Brush
- GOSH Powder Brush
- Cornsilk Loose Powder
- some sort of peachy/pink/golden blush!!!!

i might just go now and cry a little.

i am so in love - just look at these exquisite items!

lingerie - Burberry

clutch - Christian Louboutin

earrings - Chloe

illuminating tint & conceal (in bare glow & sun glow) - Pixi

blush (in super-orgasm) - NARS

nail varnish (in dover street market) - Nails Inc.

the nude colour of the clutch is just perfect - and the detailing! the minute shoe clasp and sea shell effect pleats are flawless. and the cami set is so delicate, tiny wisps of chiffon fabric on skin! the earrings speak volumes (i'm imagining them with a unconventially messy, dishellved chingon or my normal array of tumbling curls) and i've been longing for the Pixi tinted moisturiser for weeks now (two shades, one for now and one for when i am bronzed!!!), as well as that gorgeous plum colour to paint onto my nails. the blusher deserves a sentance of its own, if not simply for its name! Super Orgasm is the most beautiful colour ive seen; feather light peach flecked with gold glitter - how utterly perfect would that look swept across the cheeks? sadly, in truthful terms, all that is actually attainable is the make-up - tho that does give me a slight shimmer of hope!!

EDIT: oh i am so utterly crushed! NARS super-orgasm is only avaliable in the US right now! i NEED to get my hands on ii for this summer! but HOW?!?!

LATER:

credits to claire for the ultra-adorable "wishlist" sign, i will admit i pinched it off her! also, just to mention, i bought the most gorgeous pair of heels which i had been drooling over since i saw them. the dealbreaker came when they were in the sale and today was the last day for 20% off with cosmo (FATE much?); result = originally £135, bought for £64. delicious

and i've just entered this in the hope of winning some yummy NARS goodies! fingers crossed for me eh?

http://captchrystina.blogspot.com/2009/06/nars-giveaway.html?showComment=1244316705600#c7008627986956971077

(that is the most appetising MacDonald's i've seen since becoming vegetarian). Lagerfeld, i couldn't agree more. that, coupled with my desperation not to explode into a shuffling, grossly overweight heffer once i became comfortable in my relationship. i watched through apprehensive eyes as others ballooned - it was not going to be me. a year and a half later, i've lost almost a stone and two, three dress sizes? six and four are my new favourite numbers! i feel smaller, but not entirely tiny - i wholly agree with the sentiment that you can never be too thin (or too rich).

oh, my prom dress arrived the other day and it truly is gorgeous - smooth satiny swirls of the richest raspberry that glues right tight to my soft body. i hope R likes it, that he likes ME in it (an entirely liquid soup diet for the week beforehead is an unfortunate necessity). i saw him for the last time for two weeks last night and it broke my heart to see him leave this morning; i woke up with boi hands on my hips, strong sinewy arms locked round my torso and legs all tangled up with mine, it felt so perfect.