oh, and here are some photos from the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL EVER (theoretically but not realistically).

also, i am currently coveting everything Lush, having had a mini-splurge in there yesterday. this is what i want; Vanishing Cream, Mask of Magnaminty, Dream Cream, Aqua Marina, Ocean Salt, Cosmetic Catastrophe, Love Lettuce, Aqua Milibilias and Strawberry Feels Forever. the products i bought (Cupcake, Herbalism, Tea Tree Water and Enzymion) are working beautifully and they smell so yummy!

i've decided my posts have all been a little morbid as of late, so i shall try and lighten the mood (especially as i might actually have some readers now - hi sister!). exams are fast approaching, however and all i want to do is burrow into my bed and resurface in three weeks, conviniently in time for my 18th birthday - THREE WEEKS today. i'm more excited than i care to admit - there's something immensely unattractive about someone who harps continously about their impending birthday. (BUT NO REALLY I AM SO EXCITED!!!).

actually, i'd quite like to resurface a tiny bit earlier, in time for prom (and rachel's birthday of course). i have finally found a dress! i love it to pieces - it hugs and skims all the right places (i think...i hope!) and am waiting impatiently for it arrive.

oh, and i really miss R :'(

yesterday, suddenly, my eyes were finally opened and i could see myself for what i was. for what i am!! i am gargantum! my body has fallen to pieces and expanded, grown sidewides! i feel repulsive! how am i supposed to "flaunt my thighs" in two months when i look like this?
so. i exercised yesterday, and now my muscles are moaning and groaning! a good thing tho. and a new diet! no white carbs, no sugar, barely any dairy!
i don't know. i just want to cry and throw up everytime i look in the mirror.